What if there is something better?

For the past few days, I’ve been feeling that I’m better than what I’ve been doing. I’m better than the path that I’ve been so casually, mindlessly strolling down. I want to do something better with my life. I want to change lives. I know that’s so cliche but it’s what I want. I don’t want to do something mindless with my life. I don’t want to work in a retail store that pretends like it’s saving lives and enriching lives with their technology. I want to truly do good. I know I’m not going to be queen of the do-gooders or do good for every person I encounter. I just want to do something and be good at it and have it change a few lives. I’m over the weak stuff. The “I put a smile on my face and pretend like I’m happy with what I’m doing every day” face.

I can’t do the stupid stuff anymore. I’m over the bullshit. I know I’m young and I know have so long to go until I have to settle into anything specific and truly I don’t have to settle into anything EVER, but I’m over it. I’ve been through way too much in my young life to sit by the wayside anymore. I’m over it. I’m done. 

I want to do something better. I want to make a true contribution to this world. I’m ready for the big picture.