#taliro

Nikolina. Out of all the love interests, Nikolai is probably the only one that makes sense to me. Mal seems too forced and predictable. The Darkling is interesting, but quite impossible (although it’d be such a plot twist if Alina did end up with him, but that’s for another post). Out of all the love interests in the trilogy, Nikolai is the only one who never resents her power or want to manipulate her. Yes, he did want Alina to be his queen. But it was of course for the good of his country and he never coerced her to it. Even when it comes to kisses, Nikolai understands the concept of consent. There is a mutual respect between Nikolai and Alina. It was truly appalling how Alina never fell in love with him. Sentences written about how Alina felt towards Nikolai felt more real than the sentences about Mal. I loved the quote “I’d missed him. The way he talked. The way he attacked a problem. The way he brought hope with him wherever he went. For the first time in months, I felt the knot in my chest ease” because isn’t it how you’re supposed to feel about someone you love? While troubles in a relationship is guaranteed, relieve is supposed to be the overpowering feeling. This is how Alina felt about Nikolai; not miserable (Mal), or questioning your heart (Darkling). Nikolina was so good and pure, honestly believed they were going to be together. Don’t get me wrong, I thought the ending of R&R was alright. It was bittersweet, but unsatisfying. I can’t help but feeling that Bardugo gave us false hope for Nikolina (and Alarkling). Although I understand why she chose to end the series that way, I will never stop wanting this ship to happen.